the way i feel hurts me so,

I wish i could tell you but I just need to go

, your standing in front of me

, but your not really there,

your heart died a long time ago,

We all said this shit wasnt fair,

I thought you would come back to me ,

down the hall I heard you cry.

let it out I'm begging you,

this pain will not go away,

but instead you seek comfort,

in that bottle of pills.

you wonder why Im different now,

why I can no longer care.

well I am lonely now,

but your never there.

maybe Im just different now,

or so i have been told,

. my smiles are all empty,

my laughter has grown cold.

I wish I could be whole again,

I wish I felt my soul,

but all of that died that night.

when my son was 5 weeks old.............

my reflections not so hazy,

I now know what I see,

Im not looking at anyone else,

the other person that died....... is me.